Wow...it's been a LOOOONG time since i've posted last. It's time for me my thoughts to grasp...Seize them now and see them in full throttle.
I am in a weird mood...ponderous, and fully in the realm of my mind yet full of energy and ready to spring into action. I feel optimistic about the future...satisfied with the past and fully engaged in the present.
I feel flow. I also feel like I'm stuck in a cycle...which is not necessarily a bad thing...Life is wondrous and life has it's depths of yearning and misery...however it seems to me that the pattern of life is cyclical and pervading throughout it is a thin film of optimism, hope and dreams about to be grasped. I feel that in spite of it all --all the heartache, all the apathy, all the dark nights of the soul--if you sum up life and spell out the gist-- it ends up being a beautiful, exciting opportunity and a grand adventure. I think that we must choose to make life though.
Choose beauty....resist ugliness.
Let your creativity bubble and let your smile brim over and inspire those around you and encourage yourself.
I'm taking the GRE tomorrow. How do I feel about it?? O feel: whatever. Do my best; be satisfied and leave the rest up to...the rest.
People...people are "good monsters." And we should not judge the good in the monsters because we are all "good monsters." If you look close enough at someone's eyes you can see the potential for something beautiful to blossom out of the most seemingly, at-first-glance, darkest soul.
Who knows what the future holds. Who knows the inner workings of our mind and how our souls choose and move? We can't know that. But what we can do is simple yet profound. Enjoy. Become an aesthete. Get into the flow when you play a game of tennis. Sing loudly and passionately and dance panegyrically. Take risks when your fearful and timid. Interrupt what you're doing and have a good conversation with a friend. Stand up to your boss and tell him he's way out of line.
Smile because you can and you choose to. =)
Monday, May 28, 2007
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
motivation from procrastination
I'm procrastinating procrastinating procrastinating...yeeees I am...
Sooo, I have the GRE coming up on May 29th and I have been really unmotivated to study lately. But I will get on it...right after this procrastination post (yeah right I will...he).
I've been thinking lately about how doing the small things and making the everyday, boring, right choices (i.e. choosing to study instead of procrastinate and waste hours on the internet) is really important in the long run. However, I've also realized the flip side that sometimes when you mess up in the everyday and you get all bent out of shape about it then you are focusing too much on the small things and it would behoove you to consider the bigger picture.
So you got a C in the Biology class? BIG deal, chances are one C on your Sophomore, winter term grades won't even be remembered by you a few years down the line. Besides, though you sometimes don't do as well as you would like on subjects that are not your expertise you have great relationships with the people around you and all in all it's okay because you've got Christ.
When we zoom in and get bent out of shape by unimportant minutae we can always recenter ourselves and bring us back to reality when we go back to truth: Life is in Christ and nothing else really matters...everything is an opportunity in Christ to grow.
So whether you're having a bad day, a bad minute, a bad season of life remember that it's all small stuff because God's giving you a great big bear hug right where you are and He's telling you that in all your iniquities and flaws He still loves you greatly.
Sooo, it's good to find a balance between, on one end, focusing too much on the small things to the point of ignoring the bigger picture, and on the other hand, neglecting the small things so much so that the bigger picture gets ruined (after all the bigger picture is just the summation of all the details).
Finally a note of caution: it's all too easy to use the excuse "I'm focusing on the big picture" when we continually repeat the same mistakes over and over without improving. And it's also all too easy to cop out behind: "I'm being attentive to the details, and after all, it's the little things that do make a difference" when we are losing site of the bigger picture and getting caught up in minutae.
If we use these two excuses often enough we run the risk of losing sight of the small things that matter and losing sight of the bigger picture. In the end it's all about--it's always about balance and moderation.
...okay enough procrastination...it's time for me to hit the books.
Sooo, I have the GRE coming up on May 29th and I have been really unmotivated to study lately. But I will get on it...right after this procrastination post (yeah right I will...he).
I've been thinking lately about how doing the small things and making the everyday, boring, right choices (i.e. choosing to study instead of procrastinate and waste hours on the internet) is really important in the long run. However, I've also realized the flip side that sometimes when you mess up in the everyday and you get all bent out of shape about it then you are focusing too much on the small things and it would behoove you to consider the bigger picture.
So you got a C in the Biology class? BIG deal, chances are one C on your Sophomore, winter term grades won't even be remembered by you a few years down the line. Besides, though you sometimes don't do as well as you would like on subjects that are not your expertise you have great relationships with the people around you and all in all it's okay because you've got Christ.
When we zoom in and get bent out of shape by unimportant minutae we can always recenter ourselves and bring us back to reality when we go back to truth: Life is in Christ and nothing else really matters...everything is an opportunity in Christ to grow.
So whether you're having a bad day, a bad minute, a bad season of life remember that it's all small stuff because God's giving you a great big bear hug right where you are and He's telling you that in all your iniquities and flaws He still loves you greatly.
Sooo, it's good to find a balance between, on one end, focusing too much on the small things to the point of ignoring the bigger picture, and on the other hand, neglecting the small things so much so that the bigger picture gets ruined (after all the bigger picture is just the summation of all the details).
Finally a note of caution: it's all too easy to use the excuse "I'm focusing on the big picture" when we continually repeat the same mistakes over and over without improving. And it's also all too easy to cop out behind: "I'm being attentive to the details, and after all, it's the little things that do make a difference" when we are losing site of the bigger picture and getting caught up in minutae.
If we use these two excuses often enough we run the risk of losing sight of the small things that matter and losing sight of the bigger picture. In the end it's all about--it's always about balance and moderation.
...okay enough procrastination...it's time for me to hit the books.
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
Dreamy UnDErdog
I am a slacker..but I will post soon..mos def.
Wouldn't it be cool to be the underdog that makes the topdog look like the underdog (i.e. 8th seed Golden State Warriors are about to upset 1st seed Dallas Mavericks). There is a just something within us that celebrates and is ebulliant whenever we hear of a successful underdog story.
So while underdog stories are the feel-good happenings of big sporting events like the Olympics, imagine how amazing to the human spirit an underdog story on a larger scale is. For example, what if all our lives instead of performing below our potential and consistently choosing the lower paths and easy way outs we were to one day make all the right choices, choose to go against our fears and not only perform to our potential but find that we can be far more than we ever imagined ourselves capable of. Wouldn't that be the best underdog story EVER? Wouldn't that just make all the crap in your life a hundred times over more than worth it??
Perhaps an amazing ending can transform a lackluster story into a classic tale.
Sometimes, I feel like we all get stuck in inertia and we are waiting for someone or something to pull us out...something dramatic and epic to come sweep us out of the dirt. However, there exists no lucky lottery ticket to change all our fortunes save for the mundane, boring but germane task of choosing the right choices in the small things consistently. Only after we start to make the right choices that seem to make little difference in the short run do we see a large impact begin to illuminate itself in the long run.
Dreams....dreams are CRAZY. Dreams are essential.
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